2020, the year of self discovery

You might say that 2020 is an absolute shit show, but for me it's been such a year of self acceptance, improvement and just getting to know myself more in general. 

Just asexual things

Some things I'd like to talk about and some pictures I want to gather in one place that are very relatable to me regarding my asexuality. :)

Light

To continue from my previous post, light is also something I am highly sensitive to. Unfortunately I didn't figure that out up until last year either, but since then life's definitely been lighter. Or, well, darker!

Sound

Sounds. They're everywhere and they can be LOUD.

Instantly crying, feeling awful and scared. That is me when I don't cover my ears when there's loud sounds. I'm overly sensitive to sound and thank God I know that now.

My sexuality

Right, let's talk about something people quickly shy away from, it's something I shy away from aswell but hey, I guess it's important. The world is absolutely full of it, for something that's apparently so damn important it sure is weird that it's such a taboo to people.

But you don't look autistic!

That's a sentence I hear 80% of the time when I tell someone I have autism. It always makes me feel a bit confused; what are autistic people supposed to look like? Do I have to act all strange and unpredictable? I really don't know. I guess we just look the same as other humans, nothing alien about it, at least not on the outside. Because sometimes I really do feel like an alien.

Introduction

Hi! I created this little space to capture everything I experience along the journey of getting to know myself more, aswell as the overall day to day things I experience that's got to do with my autism.

I am 25 and I was diagnosed in my teen years, although I've only recently started to discover a whole lot about myself. I've found that a lot of things I struggle with lead back to this, solely by learning so much more about it recently. I've started to learn by mainly listening to podcasts and honestly, I should've started sooner! It's really been incredible hearing people talk about their own experience and their traits and being able to finally relate to things!

This journey of self discovery has been so great for me and with sharing it I'm hoping to be able to help others learn more about themselves or understanding autistic people around them. Of course no one is the same, but if I can get so much out of hearing about other people's experiences, then I want to do the same and return the favour, ya know?

I don't know how much of this makes sense, but anyways, hi, I am here to tell you my story. My ongoing discovery of my mind, the struggles and thoughts in one place, all having to do with that wonderful thing called ✧autism✧.. I don't completely know how my brain works yet, but I'm finding out more and more!

Welcome to idk my brain.