Sound

Sounds. They're everywhere and they can be LOUD.

Instantly crying, feeling awful and scared. That is me when I don't cover my ears when there's loud sounds. I'm overly sensitive to sound and thank God I know that now.

Up until a year ago I had no idea why I was so obsessed with wearing headphones and listening to music. I thought I was just a complete music fanatic. Which isn't wrong, but that's not the only reason why I was so attached to my headphones.

I remember when me and my family went on road trips, me and my brother would share earphones to listen to music. When he was the host the music would be so fucking loud, while when I was the host it'd be perfectly fine. At least for me. He'd go and ask me to turn the volume up because he could hardly hear it.😂 I'd turn it up to the point where it was almost unbearable for me and he would still ask for it to be louder.

But then again I think he listens to music quite loudly anyways! 

When we'd go to concerts or things with loud music I'd always get so irritated and sad. I'd instantly feel absolutely horrible and I never knew why that was. Same as things like tools to work on your house with or the vacuum cleaner, it made me feel sad, scared and just really horrible.

So when I figured out why about two years ago, I was SO relieved. I finally knew why I felt that way and how I could fix it.

Ever since then I've started to wear earbuds to musical events, or just where I knew there would be loud sounds. And it's been an absolute life changer! I don't get this sensory overload whenever I'm around loud things and I can just do my thing unbothered, just by wearing earbuds. It's amazing.

So ever since then I have my earbuds glued to my side. I take it everywhere and anywhere, just in case there will be loud sounds. Which will most likely be the case, as I'm apparently very sensitive to it. I vacuum with headphones on now, which has the benefit that cleaning the house while dancing is a lot more fun! It's wonderful knowing about this now and I'm so so happy that I don't need to be in complete tears every time.

It's funny because for someone who hates loud I sure am a big fan of heavy music. I suppose it's different because you can play music soft enough, but oh man I love (metal) music so much.

When I think back to my middle/high school days I can't remember being without an MP3, it was a literal escape from reality, still is.

Music is in my life 24/7. It brings me joy, peace and freedom.