My autism Instagram

 I know I haven't been on here a while, and there's probably not a lot people reading my blog. Nevertheless, I want to mention that I have an Instagram account where I speak about my autistic experience in life and share things related to it. 🌞♾️

instagram.com/autistic.eliza

Touch

     I've been thinking about touch and the way it can affect me sometimes. I didn't give it much attention until I watched the show Atypical. The main character Sam has autism and he's very sensitive to touch, he doesn't like it when hugs aren't tight or when people touch him softly, like a butterfly touch. No idea if there's a word for that, but there is now. 😌

     At that moment I was like wait a minute, that's exactly how I feel with soft touches! I had never put two and two together, but at that moment something clicked. I always seem to get very agitated when someone touches me lightly, it makes me sort of want to run away or jump out of my body or something. Funny how you sometimes need little nudges from shows or books or whatever, to learn something new about yourself.

     That also argues the point on how important it is to include different "disabilities" and just different people in general on TV, because it can be so incredibly helpful to get to know and understand yourself more if you're being represented in media / entertainment you consume. It can be so validating to feel seen and understood, aswell as other people being able to learn more about it, which leads to more recognition hopefully and just, wouldn't we all want that :)

     But I digress.

     For me touch, especially hugs, became so much more clear for me and I got a much better picture of why I reacted sometimes, aswell as what can actually help me better in stressful situations and what to do to make it better.

     It's funny, because I've always appreciated things like people giving firm handshakes and I never understood it, until now. It's such an insignificant thing perhaps, but it's nice to finally understand why I seem to gravitate towards certain things more and why other things put me off so much.

     We're always out there learning more about ourselves one step at a time. 🙌🏻

2020, the year of self discovery

You might say that 2020 is an absolute shit show, but for me it's been such a year of self acceptance, improvement and just getting to know myself more in general. 

Just asexual things

Some things I'd like to talk about and some pictures I want to gather in one place that are very relatable to me regarding my asexuality. :)

Light

To continue from my previous post, light is also something I am highly sensitive to. Unfortunately I didn't figure that out up until last year either, but since then life's definitely been lighter. Or, well, darker!

Sound

Sounds. They're everywhere and they can be LOUD.

Instantly crying, feeling awful and scared. That is me when I don't cover my ears when there's loud sounds. I'm overly sensitive to sound and thank God I know that now.

My sexuality

Right, let's talk about something people quickly shy away from, it's something I shy away from aswell but hey, I guess it's important. The world is absolutely full of it, for something that's apparently so damn important it sure is weird that it's such a taboo to people.